My first impression was that I was kinda.
I was in a class with around 20 people, but I was the only Asian in the class. I found it kinda diffficult in the beginning, a bit stressed? I am not so used to hear people arguing in German that fast and it was kinda hard to catch up with them, even though I have learned most of the stuffs in the college. It felt like my mind was being tricked, I felt like I was in a class, with another whole different language again. The people made friends so easily there, they can speak to each other easily because they understand each other well, but it was kinda hard for me. I am not trying to blame myself or other people, but it was just how I felt. Before this, I heard that these Asian or might be, Indonesian students, have this prototype that they are very reserved, that they are very passive in the class. I don't wanna be like that, I want to participate, to get along with other people, to also show that I am in that class, I am there, alive, a human, also studying there in Aachen.
But it was also hard to show myself, it felt like I was in the corner of the room, although I was not. That was what I felt in the first two days. Days after that, slowly but surely, I tried to get myself together, try to catch up with the stuffs, refresh my memories and tried to answer the questions, so that people can hear my voice too and see that I am actually in the class too, that was all I wanted to do, nothing more. I might not be very good at like making friends easily, moreover when I don't even know what to say aand even more with another language, ohh how my mind couldn't handle that.
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